Where is my place?

I just read a post on my friend's blog about how they feel out of place at "straight" parties. It made me start to think about where I feel out of place. It's funny, because while he feels so much more comfortable at gay parties, I think that's where I feel the most out of place. All of the guys there are part of a group that I don't really belong to. While I am gay, I've never been able to communicate with the people there, and no group of people has made me feel less secure about myself. When I'm at straight parties I never feel like people are judging me. Everyone is just there to have fun with there friends. I have fun talking to all of my friends and meeting new people. Most of the faces are familiar though, it's not like I've just been thrown into a room of strangers. With most of the people there I've usually had a chance to meet them beforehand in a smaller environment. I guess it ultimately comes down to the fact that I never really knew the people at the gay parties I went to, so I felt alone. I don't mind though, it's just not my crowd. I can live with that.